some call it stalking but I call it love
hobos are the new unicorns
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Name: hobos are the new unicorns
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I have always believed that Life itself is more than fantastic. Therefore, most of these stories simply illustrate how fantastic life is. Life, to the believer OR the agnostic, is a pretty wonderful affair. I mean wonderful in the sense of true wonder, awful in the sense of awe, stressing the IM in impossible. It is truly a miracle that we are here at all, to sleep, to rise, to down quick breakfasts and run for trains and be on time or late, as Fate decides.

A child, realizing this, finds something magnificent in the whorls on his fingertips. As adults we soon transfer our attentions from our hands to our bodies to other people's bodies and circumstances and sooner or later we fall in love and THAT is a pretty strange business, too, another wonderful, awful, sometimes unbelievable business. But no matter how old we get there should always be that sense of living on the margin of impossibility. Hence, this book, in which many people discover the margin, or the precipice, or whatever you, personally, wish to call it. Some people are frightened by it, some are elated, but I believe the sense of the impossible can be used to sharpen our senses in what we are doing and where, if anywhere, we are going. We have all had moments such as The First Day I Discovered I Was Really Alive, at the age of ten. Or The First Day I Finally Realized That Someday I Must Die, at the age of fifteen. We have all walked in meadows on certain afternoons and suddenly been so keenly aware of living that we have felt a very real and deep gratitude for this chance to live. We have seen sunsets so beautiful that there is no talking of them, caused by a million interactions of events in the atmosphere, in the light, in the dust particles, and in the hidden theatre of the mind. We have all felt ourselves participants of a precious privilege given to us by God, of what ever shape or size you prefer, on the best birthday of all, the day each of us was born.

True, the greater part of life is a real and nasty business, with more failures than successes, more illness than health. Many of us quit early and threaten to drop out of the game. But give us another afternoon in a field, or a certain rain in the air outside the office window, or an hour of night when we wake to find the house asleep in moonlight, surrounded by our families, and we are set to go on again. An occasional breather, a refresher, a bit of luck, a happy meeting, can make us cling once more to this soiled small bit of existence with a ferocity that borders on and surpasses insanity. Gripe as we may, criticize as we must, when the hour comes to leave the stage, when our particular scene ends and the curtain is dropping, most of us regret that we can't stay on for at least another act.

-Ray Bradbury
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Obligatory docked entry.


So, hi. I'm Jz and I'm a dork. :D


I'm also a graduate student, aspiring spinster librarian, bandslasher, and kind of a teenybopper. I use this journal to babble about fannish things and also to whine about real life.

90% of my posts are public (and the kind of stuff that isn't is totally boring, anyway). Anyone can friend me if they want to keep up with said public posts, but I can't friend back automatically because then I really wouldn't be able to keep up with my friends page and I don't like filters. Please don't comment here just asking me to friend you... the best way to get me to friend you back is to be friendly! Reply to my entries and stuff. I'm actually really shy so I like it when people speak up first.

You don't have to ask or anything if you just want to follow my posts. You don't even have to say hi, although I always think that is nice. If you feel like introducing yourself, you can comment here, or check out this fun little survey! Read my answers to get to know me better and then, if you feel like it, comment with your own.

If you are here for the fic, please note: The fic is not in this journal. All my fic can be found at [info]sunday_porch. Not here, not in my memories here, not on some fancypants website. [info]sunday_porch is where [info]jzbell's fic lives, okay? Okay. Go over there, friend it, read it, comment, enjoy the pornfiction. :)

If, for some inexplicable reason, you do want to read the ramblings of the fangirl behind the fic, then by all means, stick around.
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dream with your eyes closed
Ahahahahaahaahaa, omg, my life. /o\

Library school, whee. )

So, uh, on to more interesting things. Tell me I don't need a Clan hoodie dress. No, really. Tell me no. *grabby hands* Honestly, it was only a matter of time before Pete released a hoodie dress. Also, it was only a matter of time before Pete camwhored while wearing one. Never change, Pete Wentz. XD

SPEAKING OF CLOTHES THAT MAKE ME HAPPY, THREADLESS LOVES ME. A LOT. You guys have no idea how long I've been waiting for them to reprint that design! I gasped when I got the email. Come on, you all know me. It's basically my perfect shirt. I think it might even be more perfect than the Cerberus puppy.

LJ just told me my paid account is running out in a few days. I just missed the sale, too. Poo. My class schedule has really been messing up my posting. So is actually doing more of my homework. What else should I be talking about? I've been in a really strange mood and I haven't been listening to a lot of music, but I've been listening to a handful of songs a lot. Which suggests to me that I should do that "songs I'm currently obsessed with" meme! \o/

it should nevertheless be played at maximum volume )

In conclusion: HOW BOUT BRENDON AND RYAN? ;D

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mood: peaceful

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ROONEY - U of Iowa Homecoming - 9-26-08
So there's pretty much nothing to lift the spirits like seeing one of your favorite bands perform.

For free.

From the first row.

:DDD

I dunno if anyone actually cares about a full recap of a Rooney show, but my sister and I got some pretty awesome media, so I'm doing one anyway. \o/ Scroll on by if you're not interested, but just so you know, Rooney is a pretty attractive band. ;)

Recappish, ~40 images, 2 videos. )

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One of those days, I guess.
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"What if you fold it into a triangle and wear it around your neck?"
SCHOOL IS LAME.

But sometimes in class your teacher will introduce you to the trials and tribulations of subject cataloging by making you think about the differences between scarves, sashes, shawls, kerchiefs, bandanas and wraps.

lol Ryan Ross.

(No, really, he was putting pictures up, all "what about this one?" and people were like "it's still a scarf!" and he's like "but what if you wore it ~~around your waist~~? What would you call it then?" And that's when I got distracted thinking about Ryan's hips. /o\)

IT IS NO LONGER SUMMER. I need a new default ringtone! Should I get "Behind the Sea" or "Dropped" (by Phantom Planet, for the uninitiated)? OR BOTH, SINCE I HAVE THREE CREDITS?

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Was that entertaining?
Ahahahaaa, omg. I've been thinking that I should be more ~involved in my profession and maybe start reading some library blogs? So last night (read: early this morning, because my sleep schedule is fucked and I seriously just dragged myself out of bed) I got all hepped up and went to the Annoyed Librarian (seems like a good place to start?).

The top post is an OT comment meme.

WTF, library science. W.T.F.

I don't know, I feel like I don't have much to say lately. Which is ironic because fandomwise stuff has been happening! But, it's like. Do I really need to post about Panic's blog for you to know how gleeful I am that they're starting up again? Their blogs were always the best! I miss them! Don't you know me well enough to assume that I'm ecstatic?

But here, have a list of fandomy things that have made me gleeful this week:


Anyway, I had the very best class period I've ever had last week. In Resources for Adults we talked about Western novels and cowboys and hookers and Firefly and Supernatural, and I actually said things! There was also candy involved. :) I'm trying to be better about my schoolwork, with varying degrees of success. Baby steps, right? It's just that posting and commenting and replying will likely continue to be sporadic until I find my footing. There needs to be more time in a week, you know? *clings*

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This deserves its own post
(mostly because hardly anyone will care)


OMG WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME ABOUT THIS???

I have an irrational dislike of (other) social networking sites and I never log on to MySpace or Facebook and so I didn't see this until just now and omg. OMG. *SQUEAKS*

I have been waiting over ten years for them to put out another country album. THAT IS A LONG TIME. ;___; BOYS. And those YouTube clips sound so prettyyy, omg, Bob on guitar! OMG. I cannot look at these boys with anything even CLOSE to objectivity anymore. I don't care if no one gets it. BOYSSS.

Also, for what it's worth, my mother gasped aloud when I showed her this picture. I approve so hard, I can't even. *hands*

BOYS.

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music: Two Bullet Parade

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I'm covered in phermones. /o\
YOU GUYS, I THINK THERE IS LUBE ON MY PHONE. /o\

lol bachelorette shenanigans. One of [info]dodger21's friends from high school hosts Pure Romance parties, and we played hot potato with this massive, lubed-up double dildo. (I won.)

Anyway, hi, I had my hard drive upgraded last week! *frolics in all the free space* I decided to just give myself a break from everything instead of trying to keep up with my mobile flist (sometimes lj-cuts are pretty important, and it seemed like one of those times). I got some sleep and got started on some homework (sooner than the night before!) and went to a lame student organization meeting and was basically on time a lot! AMAZING. But now I owe some people some comment replies and emails and I haven't checked my flist since... Wednesday morning?

I know it's not all that much to catch up on, but I'm not sure I'm going to bother. SO TELL ME WHAT I MISSED. Did you post about something you'll probably reference later? DID YOU WRITE EPIC FIC FOR ME TO READ? Any recs in general? (Please note: what I missed does not include pictures from the birthday party. I know about those.)

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The kid can play anything.
MY CATALOGING TEACHER INTRODUCES HIS PARTNER (AND THEIR TWO DAUGHTERS) IN HIS LECTURE NOTES FOR THE FIRST WEEK. I have been looking forward to this class so much, you guys, and not just because the instructor is a gay bodybuilder who KNITS.

Other than that, I'm panicking about school already. Cut cut cut. )


In other news, I walked in [info]kitkam's wedding on Saturday! More on that. )


In more interesting news, I've been uploading stuff for Jay, so here, have stuff! Most of it's pretty old, but whatever, you might not have it.

AT&T BlueRoom acoustic performance (audio) - from earlier this year. I didn't pay much attention to this when I first listened, but I gave it another chance last week and was super impressed.

AOL Sessions - That Green Gentleman - I really like the guitar parts in this one. There's something different about it and I don't have the vocabulary to really describe it, but I know I like it. It's almost like this version feels more accessible to me. Like suddenly I can hear why Pete thought this song would be a hit.

AOL Sessions - The Weight - Brendon nails this one. There's nothing else I can say about it.

Brendon Urie - A Change Is Gonna Come - From this video of him soundchecking for Jimmy Kimmel. I kind of want to make an "OMG BRENDONNN ♥_♥" playlist, you guys. I don't know.

HCT Announcement - When the Day Met the Night - This is my favorite acoustic performance of this song, mostly because of the little thing that Brendon does around 3:05. I don't think he does that in any other performance and it's certainly not in the album version, but that's how it hear it in my head every single time. (Hey, speaking of this song, do you think I have to change my default ringtone now? Since it's September and not really the middle of summer anymore.)


Also, I gotta tell you, I'm kind of disappointed. Panic's done with Australia now, right? Did I miss a Triple J interview? Dude, earlier this spring, Ryan did a phone interview and promised the Doctor that he'd bring Brendon by the studio and they'd make Brendon try to play whatever random instruments they could come up with. I've been looking forward to that all summer. :/


AAAND, the school's online site appears to be down now. So much for doing more homework tonight. *shrugs and goes to bed*

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